Well done Spurs for getting of the bottom of the Premiership.
Back from the frozen north, big luv & thanks to the following, T, M, P, C, E, & massive hugs and squeezes to Lil Miss Tara Doggie, for keeping me company almost every night.


Sorry about the old camera phone pic, but I think we all agree, she is gorgeous.
Can you make this illusion work?


??????
Heading out of London? Soon? For a wee while?
B4 starting new therapy.
If I do leave London, I will try to meet old friends in the north.
Can I even communitcate?
Who knows?
I am so scared, freaked....
Self harming again.
my fingers look like aliens.
I hear noises, Bells, Whistles & bones cracking?
Bleeps, howls, and snapping?
is any of it real?
Does it all just confirm my disgust?
I am completely fed up with people, they disgust me. I wish had no need to interact with them on any level. I want to be found dead in 10 years time surrounded by 2 meter piles of old newspapers and boxes of bills, and just maybe a dead pet or 3 and just for good measure bags of all sorts of bodily fluids, maybe clutching my original Elmo covered in saliva and vomit, fingers crossed this hell lasts that long.
www.catsthatlooklikehitler.com
I hate you. No not you specially, Just everyone else.
Secretly I love everyone, ssssshhhh.
Tricia, You aren't alone.
I will try to visit next month, as long as pat is there at same time.
I love you so much, don't be scared.
I haven't had this happen in ages, But I got a txt tonight asking me to tell kelly to call the txter, I had to reply, I don't know anyone called kelly blah blah, long story short, after over an hour of txting back and forth, they live in Newcastle and I don't.
I never said it was a good story.
I know I posted b4, but I need to smile.

Elmo makes me want to cuddle.
the 2008 edititon,
After spending the best part of 3 days playing Tiger Woods 09 on the Wii, I can barely move my right arm. Thank god the pills are killing my libido, tho I dont tend to use my right hand for personal use, only to finish off my bits of ..., sorry, too much info there. My other addiction is midget gems, they are mini jelly sweeties in shapes of diamonds etc, nothing to do with short people, just incase the PC brigade come after me. Is a 200g bag really enough to live on healthily, probably not considering what it's made from, yuk. I must buy paint 2moro, put it off for last 3 days, I wonder why? I am determined to repaint my lounge at some point in the week. The colour is apparaintly called creme freche, but seems to be a cream with a tint, woohoo. rambling now, but not ranting yet.
Tottenham Verses Krakov poland?
How can we tell the difference lately? Apart from the scarves they wore.
Spurs won 2-1, no comment.
I will wait for the Helicopters and sirens later tonight.
With the war against terror. answer this. Why dosen't God cure/heal amputees? especially our brave soldiers who only do what our governments ask them to, not what any god ask's them to do.
Maybe the other gods are responsible for healing?
Spaghetti monster etc........

My not so secret crush "Bruce Parry" started his new show tonight on BBC2, Awesome show, it was so nice to have emails from the team while it was being filmed, then to see the pictures everywhere when the undiscovered tribe was discovered, well Bruce and his team were the ones that "found" them.
try to catch Amazon if you can.
It's worth it.
AH, there that's better, I have seen and dimissed number 1 of my ex's.
A small emotional pang but no want or need to strip him naked and fuck all night long. Maybe the pills maybe just me or a combination, Will see number 1 again b4 next weekend maybe then I can judge for certain. Hopefully can hold off ex 2 for a week or two. Who knows? Slight guilt, need to punch that out of me.
I am having a weird time,
I wanna rant about so many things,
but, all I can say is I met up with an old ex at weekend and am fixing his laptop for no real charge, it's already taken over 2 days to load it up with the stuff he wants, I know thats mad, but it gets worse, another ex who caused major problems including very dark, violent, and dangerous times wants to get back in touch, and I said ok. I think this might all be bad for me, so why do I do it? I am in need of some proper focus, and have no idea how to do it, here's hoping my new shrink has an appointment soon.
Dawkins' Keep Out campaign,
maybe a personal out campaign.
Come out of the closet,
come out for a reason,
come out in force,
But don't out anybody.
Perhaps I mean gay liberation.
But people can out themelves,
I would not out anyone publicly.
Reach out ... to everyone without prejudice.
... in the closet
... for a reason
... in force
... or maybe,
Keep religion Out of government.
Keep religion Out of Law, science & mediceine,
Keep religion Out of schools.
Just reach out and love.
Loving this lil tune.
This post goes out to the dumbfuck who just broke into my pal G's place and stole his laptop(my laptop) and mobile fone, I am gonna catch you fucker online at some point, so keep your eyes open, we pretty sure we know who you are.
Ooops, I told nobody they were all sprayed with smart water, at some point your gonna get fucked big time.


Damn, I am so miserable about missing out on twickenham gig.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I need it, I needed that.
Fuck rock the vote in 2004, what we need is puff daddy, sean combes, p myself when high, p all over bitches cos i crack high, this failure to remain sober enough to a point, just to get the youth to vote,
we can also have white parties in the south of france and bounce about on a trampoline. whilst waiting for his boys to fuck him, allegedly.
Diddy means tit for a reason in Scotland,
On a lighter note, I got a txt tonight, to be sung to the tune of "I Will Survive". Getting this from a straight freind made it more amusing.
"At first I was afraid, I was petrified!
When you said you had ten inches, Lord. I almost died.
But I'd spent so many years just waiting for a man that long,
that I grew strong I knew that I could take you on...
But ther you are, another lie, I was ready for a big mac and you brought me a french fry. I should have known that it was bullshit, just a sad pathetic dream. I should have know there was no anaconda lurking in your jeans.
Go on now go, walk out the door, don't you promise me ten inches, then you turn up with only four.
weren't you a prat to think I wouldn't find you out? Don't you know we're only joking when we say size dosen't count?
I will survive, I will survive,
As long as I have batteries, my sex life's gonna thrive. I will always have good sex, with a handful of latex, I will survive. hey hey.
My Favourite woman in the world, My auntie Pat, has her cancer back just months after being in remission, I hope the chemo and steroids work as well this time, only last for much longer this time. Thankfully August is gone now, Here's hoping September will be a better month.
My oldest living uncle died almost 2 weeks ago, I found out today, boo hoo, I didn't really know him. RIP uncle.

Do "I Believe" in anything?
I wanted to be at Twickenham today, but I can't.



I bet they won't play this.
I remember being so strung out on LSD with headphones playing "GREEN", this scared the shit out of me. (R.E.M.'s first digital album for warners.) Mike Mills backing vocal kept me thinking that someone was hiding around me.
Just to say thank you so much to my bastard ex from many years ago that gave me Hepatitus B, I have now been told that the cos I like a wee voddie or 2 from time to time on top of the Hep B When younger my liver is now quite damaged and I am no longer allowed to drink for ever and ever amen, so thank you, you completely selfish bastard and here's hoping your dead already, so you can't fuck up someone else's enjoyment of life.
Women in rock Pt 3 of ...

Patti Smith Because she is a legend.
Women in rock Pt 2 of ...

Siouxsie Sioux.
A classic for my old pal IC.
Women in Rock Pt,1 of ...

Delores O'Riordan, hmmmm:)
Kick it out, Kick it out on the dancefloor like you just don't care.



Give me some.
heres to the girl who as a complete stranger made her boyfriend hoist me on his shoulders so as I could see this live at Cardiff Arms Park 23/07/95, I will never forget it.


I was such a short ass Thank you.
BTW I am still a short ass.
Probably the fastest I ever heard this song played live.
Michael Stipe Vs Eddie Vedder, Begin the begin.



Kinda cool, well I think so. X.

Reminds me of the night @ BBC radio Theatre for the premiere of UP, I was there thanks to fan club invite with my pal L.
Just a shame the timing is out on whoever uploaded it.

Congrats to Mr. Lightening, on breaking another world record. Again he did a lil camp dance afterwards, hehehe. dance on boy, your the fastest man on the planet.


Again, just because I wanted to see someone show genuine love to their friend.
So Paula Radcliffe died on her ass yet again in the olympics.
But well done to fellow Scot Chris Hoy,

who won his 3rd gold of this games, if he aint knighted I will hunt down both Pinsent & Redgrave & Dame Holmes come to think of it.
Well done Team GB, track & feild is dodgy for results, but we still getting our best results for over 50 years.
Womens marathon has just started, I hope Paula Radcliffe will win, I think it unlikely, despite it being her world record. Here's hoping we don't have to see her breaking down in the heat/shitting herself halfway through/flopping like a whale on a Japanese whaler.
There's a whole load of nasty shit cropping up all over the place about the magnificent Usain (lightening) Bolt winning 100M gold in a breathtaking world record performance in Beijing olympics earlier today, I just wanna make a positive comment, usain is the best sprinter on the planet today, the best of the best(?) lined up alongside him and could not keep up, ok, lets be honest they could not get within 10-15 meters of this guy, he is so far ahead of the rest it is inconceivable. He also seems like such a nice guy and for 21 years old and from Jamaica, well let me just say he seems perfectly comfortable dancing around camply without any attitude. I would totally hit it with him, hehehe.
I forgot to mention this track from when I watched the film "21", It's by MGMT, It wont let me embed it. The video is quite amusing, who don't want to sit astride a giant cat? BTW all those drummers at the beginning, Bejing opening ceremony? CGI? Anyone?
After a 2 hour plus session last night of urban fox's(yes, I mean the animal kind) going nuts in the grounds and my neighbours throwing buckets of water out their windows to try to move them on, they are back again for a repeat performance tonight, the fox's play does seem harsh and they do scream as if being gang raped (or so I imagine such a thing would sound) but I love to hear and see them play, fight, mate whatever it is they do to make such a row. Maybe it's just me being back on the pills, but anything to help the issue. Maybe it's the fuller moon last night and the full one tonight is driving them crazy? Either way I love them urban fox's.
Yeaa, ticket sales were poor in Cardiff, so My Boyz have had to downsize to the arena, if only Twickenham sales were so poor they would have to play wembley arena? Alas they aint, so it's down to nobody wants to go to Wales, maybe? as for promoters claiming credit crunch bollox. I still have no intention to see them in the outdoor shows, Been there done that, don't like it, please come back in December and play the appollo or some such smaller venue in London, Yea I am selfish*, I will def go to that.
*=see previous post.
The world is full of cunts.
Happy Birthday L, my dear sweet friend,
Sorry I cannot be there with you. Big Luv Rx.
G, u idiot, I said to you report the theft, but you didn't.
Now you been done.
Arrrgggghhhhh. Stop making ur problems mine.
Yea, my fave neighbour has not quite moved out.
Long story.
But it seems us residents do have a say, as far as parking goes, at least.
The new housing bastards, have suspended the restrictions because of his work, Ok he forged my sig while I was not here, I back his work and would have gladly signed had I been here. Just make your son keep up the good work. And if your son.... who is in his 20's.....
Noah and the whale
Barenaked ladies for the noughties, maybe not. Folk music?? I don't know.
They look like twats, but I kinda like the choons.
L why the hell did u reccommend "The Signal"?
Yea it was an ok film. but f*cking hell, surely this film is a pisstake of the whole horror genre? Only it aint funny or scary. Do not tell me it was a serious film, it was enjoyable, but it was so bad in places, but fun in others, yet still the best I can give it is a 5.3 out of 10. Hmmm it was OK.
So my lil baby cuz D has sent a txt to apologise, I just want my keys, Tho I haven't yet burned his bridges. Should I take my rage out on a dumb wit, or ..........
This is not MY D, who is no relation and I love very much, and I have mega hot nauughties with.
It seems I have had a facebook set up by some friends,
I believe you can find me under richard daman.
feel free to do whatever it is you do to be friends or whatever.
I just do not understand it, Maybe it will replace my blog!!!
D, thank you for a lovely night, I love the new house, cannot wait to spend some quality time there with you, thanx for a delicious dinner, and thank you for shall we call it dessert, hehehe, xxx.
Hey lil cuz T, Stay strong, I know it's tough moving somewhere that you dont know anyone, but please don't take it out on your immediates, you can call me and cuss me up all over the place, I won't be hurt by it. Cos I know you don't mean it, but it will hurt your closest. Glad you were laughing at end of the call. I am always here for you babe. As I have shown you, all it takes is a call to me, and I can make you laugh.
No matter how shit I feel, I will always be there for you at the end of the fone.
One of only 2 neighbours that I talk to occasionally moved out today.
I am gutted, he & his family were really nice neighbours, i.e. no trouble.
Fuck knows what I will get in replacement, the new housing paople have sent chavs so far, But here's hoping they will be friendly, and at least the new neighbours will be polite. 2 new Bogans/chavs will force me to leave. But perhaps that is just me being snobish. This next week will tell.
D, my big guy, Hot Hot Hot night, if it wasn't for the fan we would both have passed out, by now. Sleep well I will make sure your up for work. I love the new BMW, very comfy, hehehe. Hope reading this makes you smile at work. I know you will have enjoyed your breakfast. By the time you read this it will be your lunch time.
Looking 4ward to Tuesday, there's gonna be some noise comming outta ur new place. Looking 4ward to seeing the Muscle car also, build up is so Hot. I will feel sorry for your new neighbours, X.
P.S. be glad I didn't have my new phone, LOL.
Great, we have a whole new family of Bogan's/Chavs/trailer trash move into the building.
I think there must be at least double figures staying in a 2 bedroom flat.
Watching them trying to force the electronic door to get in is something I need to video, cos the Locksmiths replaced the magnet in the door so you can't pull it open anymore, I will hold of making further comment, for now.
For Mr. G fans


Hehehe X
I just saw "wall:E", definately the sweetest movie of the year.
So cute. So pretty. So awesome.
Better than the new Batman movie!!!!
There I said it.
I expect the firebombs over the weekend.
Just don't do it when the kids are playing outside.
BTW, Sorry if this offends anyone, BUT....
The calls for Heath Ledger to get an Oscar for the new Batman movie is BULLSHIT.
Yea, it's a really good film.
But he was better in Brokeback Mountain.
Just cos he died is a shit reason for winning.
If I take an overdose(?) now, I won't be nominated.
Yet I have performed fantastically for some.
Damn shame they werent in the Academy.


AAARRRGGHH, it's true, we all forget sometimes.

Stipe still had some hair.
And Bill Berry was there, WOW.
This is just for me.
Not the best, I ever heard it, but it still makes me cry.

X
We have had the cops here again tonight,
This time they have taken away a 9-12 yr old as an alleged sex offender, he was seen shouting at some kid who lives in the building, masturbating under his clothes, the dumbfuck kid just happened to do it in front of one of the buildings cameras, and a neighbour recorded it for the police to view. This IS a nice place to live, hopefully this kid wont be registered as a sex offender, cos if he is, him and his family are fucked. I didn't see it, I heard the shouting but did not view the alleged act.

P.S. G don't ask for opinions then hang up when you do not like the reply.
You way toooooo old for that nonsense. Big luv Rx
Tom Delaney, or wotever spelling you want.
I will not include pics cos he is 14 now.
He is based in Plymouth, and awesome in his sport.
Give me Phillips Idowu anyday.
google the guy.
3 things.
1, If your family member betrays you, Hold out. (Till they fail you yet again).
2, Do not turn down hot sex, (in favour of family members).
3, When family fails you again, do what you want.

Save the Internet | Rock the Vote
For the last 3-4 hours, police been swarming all over the grounds of this building, until an hour ago we even had Police helicopter spotlighting various parts of the gardens, eventually 5 cops wheeled away some kind of motorbike/scooter type thing.
Fuck knows what that was about.
I might do the cock/gut punch thing later when I have doodled a graphic that tries to explain it.
You all know I love me a bit of Outkast,
so check out the Chris Brown track, "Hold Up". You can so tell Big Boi is involved,
Remember Miss Jackson.
Apart from the odd tune, he wants to be Usher, Sorry Chris, Usher has been done, even he is chasing you now, Usher you still the Papi of all these Ne-Yo Chris Brown babies. You so major Papi now especially with a lil stubble.
Former gay porn star Bobby Blake, has a book out,
I always thought he came across as a mean bastard,
but I had heard rumours that he was a lovely sweet guy,
well he sat down with Men Of Color for a chat, and it does seem the rumours are true, he is a nice sweet guy.
Thanks to Men Of Color blog,( yea I know Americans spell it differently).
Still Men Of Color is a cool blog.
here's hoping I can get a big hug from Bobby if he ever visits London.

On a seperate note, I need to do a post on the new cock/gut punch I saw tonight.
All I can say is, I thought someone had been stabbed, not an extreme reaction here in Tottenham, it was sort of innocent.
For all the Brits enjoying "Summer Heights High" on BBC3, I will suggest "We can be heroes" Written etc. by the Hilarious "Chris Lilley", which is much funnier, in some ways, and came before the hit show. Enjoy Bitches. X
Helicopters Hovering.
Watching Conspiracies,
Families moving in?
I think it might all be bad?
Then again, maybe not.
I guess how it will, all, make me sad?
Or it might make me......
Well done, Rafael Nadal, Venus Williams, Serena & Venus williams and 14 yr old Laura Robson for winning their respective Wimbledon titles, the ones I haven't mentioned is 'cos I couldn't give a shit. Thank whichever god you may choose I am so happy Rafa stopped Federer winning 6 in a row.
Hey LK, great moment. Was well hot.
On a more serious note.
Nice to know the fuckwit London mayor Boris Johnson's deputy has been totally fucked for being a money grabbing sly bastard, allegedly.
Can we look into Boris' financial past and do the same.
This Neo-Con tory cunt makes George W Bush look bright, OK maybe not. but they must rank side by side for stupidity, I cant wait to see the 3rd building collapse documentary about 9/11 as our American friends call it.
Conspiracy and all that, or is it Neo-Conspiracy.
Why did the third tower collapse?
nothing hit it.
Yet building WTC7 crumbled.
Nice to shave my head.
grade 4 all over.
Roll on the next few weeks.
Stabbing central here in London, download the drama "Fallout".
If u carry a blade. prepare to be someone's bitch in prison.
Hey big guy, thanx for last night,
it was so good to see u,
apologies tho, cos I got so carried away I forgot to give u ur birthday stuff.
Mind u, I think u got one hell of a present, hehehe.
So glad I don't have to go out today, even sitting here typing is painful.
Big love for my Big Guy D, xx
Massive thanks to G, L, D, etc.
Nice to be out of Town.
London L, D, 'kin hell roll on tues/weds nights.
Thanx Devon connection.

Arrggghh
Rumer Willis.
Well done G.
Tho I did have fun freaking you out.
Lil cuz D, you are welcome, despite my better judgement.
Heres to a good weekend.

Official Video, but UK members cannot embed.
Yes, G this is aimed at u.
You know why.
I may still have to cut you out of my life.
So my lil cuz, who behaved like a c*nt lst time he was here wants another chance, How can I refuse? it's family, but I ain't said yes yet. But how can I say no. Hmmm.
From "UP".
Damn. I never saw this live.


I weep at this.


A beautiful song live.
Mike Mills "The sexiest most unsexy bachelor in a rock band".
Look at the love, feel the love.
oh to be "west of the fields".
Let me in?


Wow. X
Many thanx to okeastron on youtube for posting my boyz bitz from Hollywood Bowl,

Audience recordings, still fucking awesome.
One of my fave older tunes, Circus Envy.


And of course my theme tune, Horse to water.
what does "white diamond and Lotus flower" smell like?
most lying advert ever?
Bold 2 in 1 advert for fabric softner?
WHAT THE F*CK!!
Surely a white diamond has no smell?
BTW.
If anyone knows who the bald black guy playing Badminton
in the grounds earlier was, tell me, cos I wanna hit that all weekend long.
Don't forget this Flat is ideal for your London Olympic Visit.
Book Now to get a good price. X
1 Good thing,
My aunty pat's remission is going strong.
1 bad thing,
WTF is Edward Norton doing involved with this shit that is the new Hulk movie?
Youtube the trailer, it looks like shit.
Not as bad as the first film. but still shit.
Way beneath Ed Norton.
Then again Having seen the trailer for Will Smith's new film, "Hancock",
2 massive howlers for the summer blockbuster. What film to look forward to?
I just don't care.
But well done new Batman movie for hiding it.
Cos at least Heath Ledger looks good as "The Joker".
2 things,
congrats G on passing the final HMP thang, I'm so proud.
Congrats T & S on your new house, Grab it with both hands girl.
I know where ur moving to T, I will stalk u, if I don't get an invite.
Massive Love T, "Be all that you can be". X.
Congratulations to George Sampson,
He won Britain's Got Talent.
This kid is an amazing dancer.
youtube him, and ask how he has not broken his back.
Well done Signature for comming 2nd
youtube them too.
oooh, He is a peado?

Despite some great tunes, moles et al, R. Kelly is a child molester?

Official vids cant be embedded. A lil too much "Bump n Grind"?
I don't dare upload it from Virgin media, 'cos we all know it will be me who pays for it. " I dont see nothing wrong, with a lil bump and grind". Me neither, But I wouldn't hit it with anyone under 20, let alone under 16 allegedly.
'kin hell, I am in lust with this lad.

We just got the 1st episode of "Greek" here in the UK,
Damn this boy is so hot, and he's playing gay, I would hit that all day every day for a week at least, nonstop. Oh his name is Paul James BTW.
Not that it matters I would just call him "again". As long as he is in his 20's.
One of my neighbours has been blasting a mashed up remix of "Horse To Water" and some drum n bass track, I wish I could find out which neighbour it is so I could get a copy of it for you all to hear, it kinda works in a weird sort of way. Reminds me of the 808 remix of king of comedy, but much more aggressive. *Note to self, must stalk neighbours till I find out who did it and how I can get a copy of it.
Just had a listen to Alanis Morrissette's new album "Flavors Of Entanglement" (damn US spelling) Gotta say I love it. "Citizen Of The Planet" is best opening tune I heard this year, even better than my boyz "Living Well Is The Best Revenge" from "Accelerate".
But then I aint that keen on "Living well...".
I kinda want Alanis to sing at my cock as I ram it down her throat, so many syllables in one word, she has to be good.
I think I might be a lesbian. Damn it I have a mighty fine cock, so that rules me out.
It does sound a little over produced in places, but it works for me. I will even forgive some of her past work.
Welcome back bitch, be angry, if you don't agree, then that's fine.
No doubt we will agree on something else, we are just people after all.
If we all liked the same thing, it would be a very dull world.

P.S. someone must be looking for a 1 bedroom flat in London.
I wanna leave London, will include pics soon.
Came across this on Murmurs.com, it's quite cool.
Who do you see, Einstein or Marylin?
Look first as you normally would in front of the screen, then stand back about 15 feet and see who you see then.

Congratulations Celtic for winning 3 SPL titles in a row.
as a former catholic I am so glad they won the title.
Fuck Rangers, Proddy bastards as we used to call them.
sectarianism was strong back in the day.
I guess it sticks with me.
Nice to know Sir Alex Ferguson's old Aberdeen team Stopped them winning after his Man Utd squad won Euro glory.
Aint life grand?
when this is the best life can offer you.
Well done Manchester United, for winning the Champions league, on top of the premiership title. 50th aniversary of the Munich disaster,
and the best in Europe, well done.
Apologies for no recent updates, had things going on and haven't felt much like sharing, though this I had to.
I just heard what I thought was someone being gang raped, murdered or both.
Turned out to be a small group of foxes, fighting, mating, messing around.
I have seen and heard this all before, but when you live in London, you can never be sure which is which, it is delightful and worrying to see these lovely creatures going about their lives, never sure how much pain or pleasure they go through.
Perhaps a metaphor for all our lives.
1 bedroom flat/apartment to let.
North London. large gardens outside.
what the fuck has London done?
Electing Boris?
Thats it, if you want to rent A ONE BEDROOM FLAT IN NORTH LONDON?
I have a flat to rent.
get in touch via links.
This fool won, Boris Johnson is the new mayor of London.
Ken got us the olympics, despite the costs,
Boris will destroy london before the olympics, in 2012.
Can he get rid of the bendy bus around the city, the refusal to build routemaster buses, by big companies?
LONDON IS NOW THE BIGGEST JOKE IN THE WHOLE OF EUROPEAN CITIES.
Sublet now, for a fair price.
Within 5 miles of the Olympic Village.
Deals to be made for years to come?