Had the cops in my flat last night, not for anything bad, I was/am a bit distressed yesterday, in a serious dark place. My friend called police when I didn't answer the fone quick enough, for fear I had done somit bad to myself. I got slightly aggressive on the cop cos he wanted to search my flat, I let him do his search, thank fuck I wasn't getting high. I am kinda shit, and have been for a while, but, I'm ok, just a bit grrrrrr. I apologise to anyone that I kicked off to. I am sorry I let it build so much, but I have to let it build, b4 I can let it go. I haven't let it go yet.